All my wishes wont call true anymore.

或许，也许我这一辈子都无法原谅自己也无法原谅你。


11.08.11-21.09.11对不起我的亲爱的

眼泪一直流，心一直痛，但是都无法改变事实。爱错了，真的爱错了.....

I hope everything will be fine.
No matter what happen in the future

Actually I will miss you if I leave u.
Actually I love you more than myself.
Actually I don want say good bye.
Actually I really want have family with you.
Actually eveything is just a dream.

或许
我不知道

bu kai xin.

bu kai xin.

bu kai xin.

bu kai xin.

bu kai xin.

bu kai xin.

I feel stress up.

Perhaps this job don suit me.

Perhaps I m asking too much.

 

 

 

你一辈子只在乎自己，那我呢？

我觉得我们之间真的有很多问题，
我觉得我好累，
我好辛苦。
我想不爱了。
可是我开不了口，我想一个人走完这个世界。
有时你说的话，总是那么的痛，你想过我的感受吗？
等你吃饭， 你却说我又没有叫你等我。
你 朋友问你可以抱我， 你说可以。
我听了心都碎了。你有问过我的感受吗？



PS：你的朋友是你人生最重要的， 我只是 路过的。 不值得你的爱。

will do a proper update when i m free.
Looking forward to SEP and DEC :))))

B.L.O.G!!!!
I miss you :)))
I know i forget about you!
NO!!!!
I rmb. I m back!!!
Life as usual. but i strongly feel the world is changing.
earthquake here and there. is this signal telling us 2012 is coming and world is ending?
I duunno.
I only know i going Taiwan to 25Mar til 4April den return!!!!!!!!!wowowowow. HAPPY :))))
After taiwan i going to do big plan~!!!!!!

Pls do not late for work, I late more than 15 days on Jan 2011.
Pls do not take last minute leave. I took 0.5 days leave. T.T
Pls do not spend more than SGD200 per month on shopping. Overspend alot due to CNY.
Pls do not spend more that SGD200 per month on entertainment. just nice :)))
Pls do not go sleep with makeup. Slp with make up twice this month. =.=
Pls do not anyhow buy useless things. i brought a top i see is nice, but after i see not nice. nv wear. hais. waste money sia.
Pls do more sales, don be so picky. I m trying hard.
Pls do remove make up before go slp.Yes. I m trying hard.
Pls do go home more to see my family. Yes. i went home alot time :)))
Pls do save at least SGD200 in your bank. Yes. I saved!

这样的男人，让他滚..............

1. 当你胃疼、或是每月那几天来的时候肚子疼，你和他说：亲爱的，我疼。如果他说：那吃点药吧，我也没办法啊。那么，离开他，他不爱你，所以不会在乎你有多难受，不会懂得心疼你。

2. 当你们吵架的时候，他不找你，只是放你一个人苦苦等待，而他和往常一样吃喝玩乐。那么，离开他，他不在乎你的感受。所以更不要奢望他会心疼你，那不可能。也不要苦苦哀求，那样只会让他更不在乎你。

3. 当你因为其他的事情悲伤难过希望他安慰的时候，他不管不问。还说：我理解不了你的想法，有什么可难受的。那么，离开他，你的生活，你的一切对于他来说都是无所谓的。

4. 如果他经常骗你，那么，离开他，真正爱你的人是不经常对你撒谎的，他骗你，是因为不够重视你。

5. 如果他说：我不是个懂浪漫的人，所以，我不记得你生日、我们的纪念日。那么，离开他，你还有什么可以留恋，他只是在为他不爱你找借口。

6. 如果你和朋友在一起吃饭或一起游玩的时候，他一脸的烦躁和无奈，那么，离开他，真正爱你的人，会给足你面子，他会让所有人都知道你是幸福的。

7. 如果当你开心的时候，你找他一起分享快乐，他很心不在焉，不爱听你说话，那么，离开他，真正爱你的人，是会把你的喜怒哀乐都装在进心里，时时刻刻与你分担。

8. 如果你一天或几天都等不到他的电话或信息，那么，离开他，真正爱你的人，是时时刻刻都想着跟你联系的。

9. 如果你为他伤心流泪，他说：我讨厌你这样，快别哭了。那么，离开他，他还有什么值得你流泪，真正爱你的人，不会让你伤心流泪。

10. 如果他喜欢上别人，那么，离开他，因为这份感情，对他来说纯属娱乐。如果你们之间吵架比吃饭还频繁，如果你们之间伤心比快乐还多，那么，请珍爱自己，远离他。

8 out of 10.

Do you think you can give me happiness?

Teach me how to trust you again?

(no subject)

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

Y must I make myself so sad?
I can be single.
There is no good men is this world.
I can survive myself without you!

Happy new year 2011. :)))
When is my last update???
I cannot remember.

New year, of cos with new wishes :))
But this year i going keep all my wish inside my heart before it come true. :)))
I will work hard for what i want!!!!!!!!!!
But there is something i must do and not to do.
Apple,
Pls do not late for work,
Pls do not take last minute leave.
Pls do not spend more than SGD200 per month on shopping.
Pls do not spend more that SGD200 per month on entertainment.
Pls do not go sleep with makeup.
Pls do not anyhow buy useless things.

Pls do more sales, don be so picky.
Pls do remove make up before go slp.
Pls do go home more to see your family.
Pls do save at least SGD200 in your bank.


I hope i can do all above. :))

Happy new year :)))

I had a bad dream last night.
12 days more to my birthday!!!

18 day to my birthday (:
3 more months to Taipei.
4 day to pay day.
6 more months to Bangkok again.



I must work hard to get wat i want!

Your friend
Your Work,
Your bball,
Yourself!
I STRONGLY feel you are living alone, without me in your life!
I'm transparent!
You only concern about yourself!!!!!
YOU ARE VERY SELFISH!!!!!!



After 3 year, you never change, how SELFISH you are.
How disappointing i m now.

Yes.
I allow you go pub.
You better don bluff me.
If not i will forever hate you!










Endnote: I will allow go pub drink. But i m worry, because i scare you lied to me again. :/
You never know how i feel.
You better be home by 1am.

I haven done any proper update on my blog.

@Work.
I'm stress..
Indeed.
I feel like i lost the passion le. No mood working le.
Feel like taking long holiday!!!
PNL at starting month not very good :( sigh.
But i need alot money to buy this and that so still need work hard!!!
Caiping, Jia you! jia you!!!


@Love
Not so much quarrel anymore.
But i feel alot our thinking different,
The thing i want you do, you don want do.
Alot thing you want do, but i m not happy with it, but you say that is you. you wont change.
What else i can say.
Yes, I love you alot. I can bear for time been.
But must i tolerate the thing that i dislike in my future?
When ever i think how i feel?
I duuno what to do, make you change.
I feel unhappy with that. I only can write it here.
You tell me what should i do?
I really dunno how.
I feel i m going crazy.



@Life
B O R E D !!!!!
Anway i got myself Iphone and new wallet!!!! tee ^ ^
I guess this only happy thing!!!




Ending: Life still going on. More sales pls!!!!

(no subject)

Is fucking sick!!!!!!

no matter how much i effort i put in this relationship, i never go into your heart. :( you will never love me like how much i love you.

Yes!
Taiwan i m coming at 25Feb2011!!!!

10 Day 9 nights, 8 day 7 night Taipei den 3 day 2 night Hongkong free and easy!!!!
I'm coming!!!!!!

Tee^^ Tee^^

我累了，真的。。。


等待只会让我更伤心

如果，你在乎我，可不可以让我知道

如果，你在乎我，可不可以让我知道，不要总是让我找你，那会让我感觉，你根本就不在意我。

如果你在乎我，就不要总是让我孤单一个人，我真的很讨厌寂寞。

如果，你在乎我，记得多关心我关心我，我喜欢你问我今天做了什么，而不是自己一个劲地告诉你，我今天怎么了。

如果，你在乎我，在我情绪低落，心情郁闷的时候，要多讲话逗逗我，不要一直的沉默，其实，只要你一句话，我就会很开心了。

如果，你在乎我，在我生你气的时候，绝对不可以想着我在生气，就不理会我。这样，我会很伤心，也会更生气，其实，我只是想你哄哄我。

如果，你在乎我，不要总是回我 呵呵 哦 这类的话语，就算你不想说话，也要多打几个字，不要让我感觉你是在敷衍我。

如果，你在乎我，不要让我在需要你的时候，却找不到你，那样的我很无助。

如果，你在乎我，要记住我们在一起发生的事情，要记住我的喜好。

如果，你在乎我，不管是好是坏的事情，我都想你可以告诉我，让我分享你的快乐，分担你的忧愁。

如果，你在乎我，可不可以让我知道?

如果我在乎你，我也可以做到。

突然间我问自己一个问题，
我们会在一起一辈子吗？
我不知道答案。

主动久了，会累

如果有一个女生，

放下自己的身段，

主动联系你。

一次，

两次，

三次

如果有一个女生，

放下所谓的尊严，

有事没事都联系你。

一天，

两天，

三天

或者，

你觉得她很廉价，

或许，

你根本不在乎。

甚至，

你以为一切都是理所当然的。

只是，

她，毕竟只是一个人，

一个很平凡的女孩，

她也需要有人疼，有人照顾。

终有一天，

她会累了，倦了，她会哭着下定决心，

再也不主动了。

因为，每一次的主动换来的只是更深的伤害。

她，宁愿没有这样一个借口让自己痛苦。

她会离开，再也不打扰你的生活，

她会离开，悄无声息，

从此你的生活不会再被打扰。

————————————————————————

突然的感谢罢了。

其实，在爱情里，

只要幸福，主动与否，

并不重要。

只是，不算爱情的爱情，

主动的代价则显得太大了

(no subject)

you friend is always more important than me.
=(